banannie

I’ve really been in a state of blah lately. I need two days.

One would be spent reaching out to friends. Sending emails, commenting on blogs, yammering back and forth on Seesmic or Utterz… whatever.

The other would be spent lost in CSS. I bought some design books at Borders and I so just want to dive in and play, see what I can come up with just by pushing kb around. It’s been awhile since I did a project just for the fun of it. I’ve got ideas for the redesign of this blog, and another secret project I want to have done before a secret date in the future…

Don’t get me wrong, I’m productively busy and thrilled about that! Business is steady, I have great clients. Some of the other things I’m involved with have lost their gloss, but it’s not so bad. The house is a mess, but there’s nothing new about that. I need to remind the boys that there’s a chore chart hanging on the fridge.

I’ve also got a bunch of little nagging financial things to take care of. Finish sending in last year’s medical bills for flex savings reimbursement, look into refinancing (again), do the taxes and FAFSA, continue annoying the insurance company about the bills for Andy’s hospital stay. And how could I forget the usual bill paying fun?

Everything I do that I don’t get either joy or money from has become incredibly tedious. I’m frustrated because there are so many things I want to do, but I feel buried under what I have to do, and too exhausted at the end of the day to play. Maybe I need to find a way to make joy out of the tedious stuff, because I sure as hell aren’t going to make any money from it. If I only I could refinance while practicing chords on my guitar…

Hmm, kind of a bummer post. But it’s been that kind of week- and I’m feeling a little physically crappy, too. Tomorrow hopefully I’ll wake up all cheery. It’s Pinewood Derby day. I’m supposed to park myself behind the snack table again. It’s kind of fun- everyone comes to the snack table so I get to say hello to a ton of people.

There, see? Ending on an up note.