I know this stuff is probably less than interesting to anyone living outside of my own head, but then, maybe it’s not. And even if it seems boring now maybe someday in retrospect it’ll have shown to be useful to someone else.
I do know that the act of writing it all in a such a public way helps me. Maybe I should make this a regularly scheduled update.
Where do things stand right now?
I’ve come to understand some things. One is that I’m not that great at marketing myself. I was asked last week “What kind of work are you looking for?” and I couldn’t answer the question. I need to really narrow and clarify the focus of what I have to offer and who I can and should offer it to. I have an opportunity here to jump into a rapidly emerging field, but I’m not sure how to find the doors that are cracked open, or how to get more than the tip of my toe in if I do find them. I know I need to reach out for help with this but I’m not sure who to reach out to. Finding the answer to that should probably be my next step.
I’m really looking at six to twelve more months of the kind of freedom most people aren’t fortunate enough to ever have once they’ve graduated from college. I need to decide how best to use this freedom to learn and place myself in a position to take advantage of opportunities that hopefully come my way (once I figure out that marketing myself stuff!)
Something else I’ve come to understand- while I love the design work I do for Pixel Currents, and I do want to continue with it at least on a part-time basis, I’m not sure that working on my own, especially to the extent I’d have to in order to bring in a decent income, is what I really want. In fact I’m surprised to realize that I’m pretty cool with the idea of jumping onto someone else’s bandwagon, but bringing along an instrument that they hadn’t considered playing, then making a new type of music together.
But maybe that shouldn’t surprise me. I’ve always been happy to be the implementer or problem solver rather than the decider :). I’m ok with letting someone else have the Big Idea, then helping them find ways to make it really work. In fact to me that sounds like more fun than trying to create my own Big Ideas.
So.
I’ve got some thoughts on where I’d like to end up, but I’m not quite ready to blog about them. I wonder if I’m dragging things out unnecessarily? I don’t know. This is new territory for me. I’m anxious to see where it all leads, but I’m not going to rush through. I’ve already sped through too much of life so I’m taking things slowly and taking it all in this time. Stay tuned, I guess!
